IV. Now
Anyone who’s still reading these posts obviously has too time on their hands. I recently made the following interesting (well, to me) realization. I feel more like a stereotypical teenager now than I ever did while I actually was a teenager. Allow me to delineate my meaning.
- I want a girlfriend. While I obviously had various crushes throughout high school I never serious considered dating, I was just a kid, after all. This changed in my third year of University (in my first two years I was far to busy just staying alive to be concerned with anything else). Perhaps this aspiration is an expression of a desire for greater emotional intimacy. The end result is me sizing up almost every new girl I meet, something rather new to me.
- I want to move out. In general, I want to be less bound to the life of my parents and my family. I crave self-sufficiency. However, I can’t help being overly sensitive to what I perceive to be the needs or moods of people around me. Hence the feeling that only by moving out will I force myself to detach and live my own life. Moving out would force me to take care of myself instead of relying on my family. This is especially true in the area of relationships. Right now when I feel lonely it’s much easier to seek the company of sibling or parent than some other friend. If I lived by myself I wouldn’t be able to take the easy way out, instead I’d have to learn to overcome my shyness and build new relationships. In short, I feel it’s necessary if I’m going to continue to mature.
- I want a girlfriend. While I obviously had various crushes throughout high school I never serious considered dating, I was just a kid, after all. This changed in my third year of University (in my first two years I was far to busy just staying alive to be concerned with anything else). Perhaps this aspiration is an expression of a desire for greater emotional intimacy. The end result is me sizing up almost every new girl I meet, something rather new to me.
- I want to move out. In general, I want to be less bound to the life of my parents and my family. I crave self-sufficiency. However, I can’t help being overly sensitive to what I perceive to be the needs or moods of people around me. Hence the feeling that only by moving out will I force myself to detach and live my own life. Moving out would force me to take care of myself instead of relying on my family. This is especially true in the area of relationships. Right now when I feel lonely it’s much easier to seek the company of sibling or parent than some other friend. If I lived by myself I wouldn’t be able to take the easy way out, instead I’d have to learn to overcome my shyness and build new relationships. In short, I feel it’s necessary if I’m going to continue to mature.
1 Comments:
You have now accomplished both of these goals. Your life to-do list is looking good. Now we just need to get you that job you want. The one with less tedious day-to-day tasks.
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