Realizations – Preamble

In recent days I have read many New Year’s resolutions. I have never (in my memory) made any such resolutions. This is not surprising considering that my family has never celebrated New Year’s in any way (with the exception of the obligatory mass because of the feast day, but of course that’s not really related to New Year’s). If any member of my family happens to be up at 12 am it’s merely a coincidence. Thus, in place of New Year’s resolutions or lists of top somethings I have decided to write a series of important realizations in my life.

These posts are a product of a long-standing desire (resolution would be too strong a word) to be more open. This blog is in fact a manifestation of this same desire. Yet despite knowing that my good friends, who have never shown me anything but respect and kindness, are the only people who would possibly read this, I constantly convince myself to say nothing of consequence. Actually, I think (no, I’m certain) my fear of writing in this forum has increased since its existence became known. I have many voices in my head telling me that I’m being self-centered, airing my dirty laundry in public, or making an inappropriate cry for attention, but this is my blog and it’s time that I said something about myself in my own words. So here it is; some pain, some gain, and a lot of me.