Rambling

I started this blog just to experiment with actually writing down my thoughts, something I’ve never done before. Five months later I would have to call it a failure. I can’t just compose my thoughts for a computer in nice discrete packages and then retain them until I have the time to write them down.

There isn’t enough time in life to actually do what you want to do, so you have to decide what you want to do. Living from assignment to assignment is hardly living, yet making other choices requires a kind of strength I don’t seem to possess.

Pi-Throw feels like it’s going to kill me. It’s funny; I’m more organized, detail-orientated, and creative than most people and therefore more qualified to run this event. However, all this is essentially outweighed by my overwhelming inefficiency, complete inability to type, and most of all, my constant state of crushing fatigue. Yet again I find myself wondering what it would be like to wake up and think that getting up felt better than staying in bed. Maybe after I’m down reading this anxiety booklet thing I’ll have some better coping strategies, this I ever get around to reading it.

I had a job interview today and it went alright. I don’t think I’ll get the job, but I never think good stuff will happen to me, so that doesn’t really matter. The fact that they still interviewed me after I submitted the wrong cover letter must be a good sign.

Say hi to the new S.E.S.S. Charity Director.